so i find myself in the very familiar place of job hunting again. i am ridiculously sick of being in this place. especially since we have a house, car, bills, and baby all to pay for right now. amy and i have really been in a place of utter dismay with our jobs and finances. when we moved the first job i took was working at a mortgage bank here in amarillo. i absolutely love it!! it was something different than i had ever done before. something new to learn and try to accomplish. i feel i was pretty good at it for the most part. but it was the least part that became frustrating. i could get done the things i needed to but it was all the depending on third parties that stressed me out and trying to learn on the fly to get things done. i was at my breaking point with it. on my way to work one morning i just told the lord "lord, if you want me here let the loans i have in my pipeline go smoothly, if not shut the doors here and open doors somewhere else. in god like fashion he answered and during the next 7 days i lost every loan in my pipeline!! i was a little shocked but knew what i had asked for. again, the lord opened door to do appraisals through a friend (the same friend, actually, who hooked me up with the mortgage job). i began to work for a guy based out of lubbock and i would do his footwork up here in the amarillo area. it was a good deal, i thought. i got paid half the appraisal fee, would learn a new trade, and get licensed to do appraisals on my own in a year or so. problem was that the guy that i was working for was a complete bum. i am not sure why he does business the way he does (not answering or dodging phone calls, making empty promises, lying about any and everything, and not taking ANY responsibility for what he does, or doesn't, do). So after several months of putting faith in him that he would get things turned around and then finally confronting him in lubbock last week (after having to track him down), I am back at square one. amy is doing ok at her new salon but some weeks are good and some are not. we are still trying to get her to a full client el. I do have a couple of leads on other places to get sponsored to do appraisals but realistically most appraisers do not want to train their competition. I already have promised business if I can just get on with someone but we will just have to ocntinue to pray this one in. Amy and i have the analogy of manna concerning our finances right now. it seems that every time we are at the end of the barrell the lord provides manna to sustain us. not for saving, not for tomorrow or next month, but just for today. just for the bills that HAVE to be paid now. we are tired and stressed out about all of this and are trying to lay it all at the feet of the father as well as the situation with her sister and brother in law with their divorce. but the lord is faithful to us. constantly providing manna. consistently saying 'i have you, don't worry'. there are many things that we are contemplating right now but he has us in hand. but if you know of a good job in the amarillo area i would be ecstatic to hear from you. I am up for anything right now. i just started waiting tables at carinos at night and have been looking for some worship gigs in the area but we'll just have to see what the lord provides!!! Thanks for praying with us!!